They’re right, I’m a Nothing?

Dear Phoenix, It took me 3 days to prepare myself to make that phone call.  Phone calls remain my one major test as a person with Autism, my Kobayashi Maru.  To most people, this sounds silly or trite, but for me it is real. For those of us who struggle with communication, the phone can be […]

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How to stop time

Dear Phoenix, Negativity is a foul disease that infects the air of adventure.  The information wars between those who push and those who seek are louder now, and it seems fear has its fingers on the volume dial.  Though the heat from your flames are scorching me, for the first time I find I am […]

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When Charity Taketh Away

How Autism Speaks stole income from working Autistic people This past week I presented at a conference in San Diego called Love and Autism.  The conference was put together by the amazing professionals at The Family Guidance and Therapy Center of Southern California. I have spoken at many conferences, but this one is the most […]

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Anger, Truth, and Comfort

Dear Phoenix, Sometimes I anger people, and even more so lately, but this does not bother me.  Anger is their poison, not mine.   I believe in the good of people, and that we get locked away inside ourselves because we want to be accepted more than we want to speak objective truths.  Since what […]

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Autism Disclosure Does Not Make Me a Target

Dear Phoenix, It is often that I hear from parents that they are afraid to disclose their child’s Autism because they make their child a target.  My first question is, why do people believe this? First, let me say what usually remains unsaid, Autism is only invisible from a selective point of view.  When onlookers […]

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Tonight, I am Playing the Shadow Songs for You

Instead of writing a letter to Phoenix, tonight, I will be taking my violin to the edge of the water to play shadow songs to the sunset. Inspired by a student who taught me of the Japanese concept “mono no aware”, the awareness of impermanence (mujō), or transience of things, and both a transient gentle sadness […]

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Collective Friendship

Dear Phoenix, Back in early 2015 I was working hard to grow past many of my limitations, and push myself towards my dream.  I wrote a script for one of my 5 minute positive takeaway videos, but never got a chance to make it.  Chasing a dream takes ample energy, and all of my resources. […]

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Finding My Passion for Teaching

Dear Phoenix, There is a certain kind of giddy I get when I think about the students I teach.  Every one of them brings to me a renewed sense of the world around me. When I first started teaching, I worked as an after school music tutor.  After a few sessions, I knew that teaching […]

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